Love thee like you love the others

Destructive impulses can be hidden in many different ways. In eating habits (or exceptions), in the way you drive your bike, the way you cross the street and in those strange visions of jumping out the window or into the river – not wanting to die from it but just for the sake of doing it, of the action involved in it.

I have spent a most interpelling week since last Tuesday, with feelings of sadness, destruction, betrayal, accident, remembrance and death. Spiced with tears.

Those good old visions of destructive behaviour for the sake of it where particularly present. As I said, they are not consciously meant to hurt myself but to defy the laws of physics (and biology) and or to actually experience them.

But those laws do exist. And they are the reason why I do not accept to hurt and use other beings.

So why do I accept to potentially hurt my own self?

Hurting one’s own self one is automatically hurting everyone else. Because we are all connected and all in the same biosphere. One cannot be good to others unless one is good to oneself.

So, for the same reason I care about other beings, I have to care about myself. For if I don’t, I do not care about the others. It would be a lie, a pose, fake.

As I finally understood that, all my troubles were gone. Treat yourself as you treat the others.

Published in: on June 22, 2010 at 12:05 pm  Leave a Comment  

When your head aches

Have a small dose of cubensis.

Published in: on June 15, 2010 at 11:12 am  Leave a Comment  

Chloe the afreet

Chloe in Domaine is a wild little girl, runing for her needs and laughing at all people.

In the Enneagram test she is a Seven.

When someone criticizes her, she bursts into smiles.

When her friend I. is lost, she giggles with tears.

Afraid of nothing, dancing with red boots.

She hunts the memory left forever.

~

Published in: on June 13, 2010 at 9:46 pm  Leave a Comment  

The image giving out

Checking up on how my writing is going.

Working on my new screenplay now, the story of a phobia… “Z Powodu Fobii”.

Haven’t finished anything since Caroline, if I remember well…

La Maison du Marais and Le Charlatan et La Libellule are on pause. So is Domaine, a new novel coming up.

Screenplay writing has been the most rigorous work I have ever done, very compelling, exciting and fulfilling.

Can’t wait to get back to novel writing though; such freedom…

Writing is also constantly thinking and thinking and seeing. The wonderful world of the image giving out.

Published in: on June 13, 2010 at 11:21 am  Leave a Comment